letter 1

they face me with certain expressions that makes me wanna not have a face to be able to see them. their empty smiles, their horrendous face, and i've only realized this now, since looking at the stars and being petrified of watching the Man behind it all just looking at me and waiting for me to do something about it. maybe He just doesn't know that i can't do this by myself. i don't have anyone to look out for me, anyone who even remotely cares for what i'm doing for His cause. all i'd ever want is to be free from this place.